Serendipity and new beginnings.

• I had a lot happen this past weekend that has made me realize so much about myself and where my life is going. As everyone pretty much knows I had a bad break-up recently over a miscommunication and she and I have yet to really have fair ground to stand on. We're always back and forth on how we are and what we expect of each other and I've finally realized that enough is enough. I care more about her than my pride and what I want and I am finally coming to terms that it's time to let go and move on. For so long I believed that she was the person that I was meant to be with and who knows, maybe someday we'll run into each other or reconnect and things will be perfect. But as for right now, by the way we've BOTH acted, it's apparent that nothing is going to happen. I'm trying to remain friends with her, at least. Because I don't want to have to see her everyday and think about all the times we've shared and know that she can't even have the audacity to have a conversation with me... And I'm hoping to someday not blame her for all the crap that happened, because I still feel like it's what she wanted. But I will never say a bad thing about her and I will never deny how much she captivated me. She's a beautiful and remarkable human-being and I am so thankful to have had the chance to have something with her, even if it was never given the fair shot that it deserved.

• Secondly, this past Saturday with interesting. An old friend of mine came into town without me having any knowledge of it and a song he loved came on the radio while I was driving around Norfolk. "Let's Get Lost" which is an utter classic, mind you, was playing on the oldies station and it gave me the urge to swallow my nerves and just text him to say hello. I went to Hobby Lobby, which I haven't done in a long time, and he replied saying he was at Hastings, which was shocking. Eventually, with the help to my wonderful gay best friend, Aaron, I summed up the courage to ask him to hang out before he headed back home(and by that I mean his dorm at UNL). He came and picked me up and we drove around and caught up and had a good time. It was nice, honestly, because I hadn't had a good afternoon with someone in a while where I wasn't worrying about all the rest of the drama going on in my life. I even got to say hello to his family, which I hadn't seen them in a very long time. We made fun of scary movies and ate glazed rolls. I even tried to convince him to come back over his spring break, which isn't for quite some time, but who knows maybe I got to him? Hah! (: I'm just hoping to stay in touch with him this time around, because nothing shows you how much you miss someone until you run into them by chance.